Up in the Air...

So....
Feeling really lost.

New Year...

...and I'm feeling a little lost.
Christmas with the family kind of went awry.
My sister wasn'f feeling great...wasn't able to get to Cincinnati.
My Mum made it clear she didn't want us on Christmas Day.
So....Christmas Day was wonky. To be honest...don't remember what Bob and I did.
Our Tribal Christmas somehow like it went wonky as well...not quite sure how and why.
The New Year...
well...starting off feeling off balance.

Feeling a little rantish....

...and a little lost.
I want to be in home. I want to be a housewife. I liked it and I was good at it.
It gave me time to be creative. 
I have a husband who doesn't get it.  He was a country club kid. 
His Sniddely Riplash...comes out at me.
Did tonight because I yammered too much. 
ShutupShutupShutup.
Re-reading...
All good. It.s a relationship.

Well...hello...

My child wants nothing to do with me. I am anathema.
At least he's talking to his Dad. That took a long time to come round.

Damn...

...haven't been here a while.

Have no idea if anyone sees this...and it doesn't matter if no one does.

I'm over my job. I'm tired of being The Visual Guru. I'm way tired of dragging racks that weigh way more than I do. I'm tired of the random icky bruises that show up after I moved/ran into something...a "That's gonna leave a mark" moment.

Most of all...I'm tired of what our company has done.

We were high end mid price. That was good with our customers. 

The coupons...the percentages off...we've trained our customer to wait for sales.

The 70% off the old sale...had a customer tell me "some of this looks beat up." 

And I said yeah it is. Shopworn.

Tomorrow...

...could be interesting.
Evelyn's been in assisted  living  since late June. 
We cleaned out her apartment. Hard and weird. Some of her furniture is living in our garage.  If she knew that...would appall her.  it' s Henredon. Good stuff sitting in our garage.
About tomorrow...Bob wants to bring her to our house. 
I have said ...No...not a good idea...for so many reasons. 
He's operating out of Guilt. I think he feels he's been neglectful to her.
if he brings her to our house tomorrow...I'm out of our house til she's out of our house. 
kNOW bOb IS TRYING TO THE RIGHT THING....
BRINGING HER TO OUR HOUSE AIN'T IT.
i DON''T THINK SHE COULD MAKE IT UP THE STAIRS ...OR OUT TO A CHAIR.