Drinks After Work...

are a wonderful thing. I closed tonight with Vicki and we went to the Rusty Bucket for after work apertifs. Vicki is the coolest person...she is strong, funny, grounded and at times has been my sounding board and has always offered good advice. She came to Chicoland while she was still working for Chase in a management position. Her insight has always been invaluable to me.

Bob and I went to see "Virginia Woolf" last night. I had auditioned for the part of Martha (see past blog) and wasn't sure how I felt/feel about the show. I had done the part of Honey years ago with a stellar cast...at the time, I remember feeling like I wasn't up to the rest of the cast....like I wasn't pulling my weight. The whole rehearsal process of the show I was involved with was an adventure and a terror and so much fun in the DRAHMA of the whole thing. Norm, who played George, almost had a nervous breakdown...maybe not really but he became paralyzed with fear a couple of times in rehearsal...so many lines...didn't realize until last night how much George is on stage. I always thought the play was about Martha but last night's production was about George. I didn't agree with some of the choices made in the production but I think it's because they came at it from a differant angle.

Ii was singing and dancing at work tonight. We have finally gotten a good CD with stuff even the customers sing to...it also made me realize how much I want to be acting again. I just want to be out there and saying something, and expressing something and connecting. That's what acting is to me....it's connecting. To the people on stage with you...to that moment...to that quicksilver moment that is magic...to that one moment in however many performances that you hit some truth...of life...of yourself...it is an indescribable feeling...and it is rare. When that magic happens...when you have connected with your audience...you have told a story and gotten people INVOLVED....that is brilliant. To be a part of a show that has touched people...it is such a high and so humbling.

Ii remember years ago when I did the show "Fifth of July". It was maybe the first weekend of performance and one of my fellow actresses said to me " You have no idea of the power that you have."

The only place I have felt totally fearless and safe is onstage.