Heigh Ho...Heigh Ho...Off to Hospital We Go...

...after a scary moment.  The diagnosis was complicated atypical migraine.  Had two big deal tests (CAT Scan and MRI) and spent the night in the hospital. The lovely part was I was told if I had been twenty, I would have been sent home after being treated but because of my age, I needed to stay for observation.


We had been to Target and I started getting the vision aura thing...just couldn't see right and felt weird...mostly disoriented from the vision thing.  It's like you're looking at your surroundings with goggles on that have dark wavy lines dancing around in front of you.  It's like they're in front of your eyes and in your eyes at the time. I told Bob I thought I was getting a migraine...hadn't had one in years. We bought Excedrin Migraine...took before leaving the store.  Bought chocolate...ate in the car.  Headed home to make strong Cuban coffee.  Got home...I was starting to make coffee...Bob asked me a question...and the scary moment was I lost my words.  I knew what he asked me...heard what I said...knew it made no sense.  He looked at me a little strange and I said something that made sense.  He asked me something else and I can back with...nothing that made sense...and I knew it.  I started sobbing because I was afraid.  My husband took over.

I know Bob was scared, too.  I saw the look in his eyes when he turned to look at me when I answered whackadoodly...maybe he was looking into a mirror of fear.  What I remember is his arms went around me so fast...and I felt safe...knew I was safe.

So...things from scans look normal...a good thing.  Have looked all this info up on the web...the speech wooble...VERY scary but found it...and if I'm honest I knew this was coming for at least a month and a half.  Tension headaches they name has been Cyndy.

I've been feeling unhappy at work...even went so far as to tell my store manager that I thought I was getting the short end of the stick.  Told her I felt like  I was on the cleanup crew for what the other assistant manager doesn't know to do or want to do.  There is ALWAYS something not done and leftover from her that puts everybody back at least a step. 

If I were Queen of the Realm....I can run that staff in my head....damn.

Think I would be just and merciful Queen...would expect nothing less of others.

We're a Statistic...

...Bob got laid off today.

 He has worked for a small family owned garage in Delaware for the past eleven years...a business with a brilliant reputation.  Our car broke down in Delaware at least three years before he worked for them and all the people who stopped to help us told us to take the car to Leroy's...they are the best.  Bob has said over the past couple of months that business has been really slow.  Leroy told Bob he would hire him back if things picked up but that if things didn't pick up in the next couple of months he was afraid might go under.

 Here is a small family owned business with a spectacular reputation...who takes care of their employees in the family business kind of way.  Norma, Leroy's wife,will bring lunch for the shop at least twice a week...and I mean LUNCH...Mom food...sloppy joes...macaroni and cheese...fried chicken...chili...my not sound like much but think of making that stuff for twelve. 

Bob did not have any coverage through the shop.  Leroy did look into coverage at let two times and the cost were ridiculous. He tried.

Not a good for us

Feeling Angry...

...and I don't like feeling that way.  When you're in a customer service industry...that's not a good under current to have. Feel sometimes like my job has killed something in me.

Snapped back at my boss today...and not happy that I snapped. Feelintg like the grunt....the pick guy.