How do you figure out how to say goodbye to someone who has been a part of your life for twentysome years? This person got married and their life has changed and they are moving....all good stuff...but I also have the feeling that when they move they will never be back. I guess the word is closure...they are doing their form of closure and just starting over.

I'm being selfish. I just don't want to think that I won't be able to see this person and talk to them and just see how they are...that they just won't be around anymore. I know that this person is happy and is in love and more content than I could ever have imagined...and yes, again the "S" word and that's all it is...because they have part of my history and somehow I guess I wonder like we all do...do those people we loved carry us in their hearts and lives like we still do them?

I call them the Freebase moments...when you're driving or running the vacuum cleaner and your thoughts wander to some time or place or incident or person...we hold those moments in our souls. Those are the times that you remember your first kiss, how you should have done something better at work, that moment onstage that was problem and NOW I know how that line should have been said, how I could have appreciated someone better. I guess I just never think that I could be someone's freebase moment.

I also wonder about the term "Verbal Vomit" and whether it was a good thing or a bad thing. Throwing up is never good....messy, it gets on stuff, hard to clean up (paperbags next to a bed side always good in cases of the flu....easily disposable....who knew I could have a helpful Mom tip.

I have a five year anniversary coming up. My husband is the best. He bought us a cord of wood...fifth is wood. Good for building the slowburning fires...I'm learning to be patient in my firebuilding.